Friday, June 20, 2008

redemption*

I keep reminding myself, I forgive these people, myself, I forgive them.
So that God can redeem. I don't want to give the enemy any license by keeping my grip on any of this. I surrender. I keep reminding myself.
Again and again because it's necessary.

8 comments:

Sarah said...

Necessary, but totally and completely hard. Loving you here.

di said...

thank you sarah, i felt that. and needed it. you know, forgiving comes pretty easy for me personally, having been forgiven so much and having experienced the full circle of reconciliation, it's incredible. but when the injustice is done to your beloved, something fierce and somehow less able to pardon rises up and isn't so easily consoled. completely hard indeed. i know it's covered but it's still grrrr!

bless you, hope all is well with you and dave.

Sarah said...

you're welcome ;) ouch--injustice sucks in and of itself, but when it's to someone you love...wow...yuck. definitely covered but also definitely rough.

dave and i are well...very, very warm, but well. thanks for asking.

Terri said...

i know that feeling. i've been working on that concept of forgiveness in my group the last couple of weeks. it's the hardest thing we're called to do i think, and the best thing in the end because it frees us up. but you're right...so amazingly hard when it's an injustice against someone we love. i have a lot more practicing to do in that area for sure...

di said...

I've been trying to figure out how to post a song and realize I was unknowingly violating copyright with some songs I've uploaded to twango (and posted in earlier blogs) so until I figure something else out I'll just share these lyrics. Wish you could hear it.

"Surrender" by David Ruis

Though you weep
you'll find comfort
though you bleed
you will find hope

though you run
you will find shelter
for your soul

though you're crushed
you won't be shattered

though you die
you will find life

though you burn
with the deepest burnings
you'll be alright
yes you'll be alright

surrender
surrender
surrender
surrender

though you feel
like no one's listening
don't believe
the devil's lies

though his kiss
may taste like honey
it will steal your life
it's gonna steal your life

though the cup
that stands before you
seems too bitter to drink
though the road
is marked with suffering
it's a step of faith
it's always faith

it's a step of faith
it's always faith

surrender
surrender
surrender
surrender

Amykinz said...

Love you, Di and your amazing heart and love for your hubby. This is another song that has ministered to me so many times. I hope it helps you, too.

"This Road" by Ginny Owens
A million miles away from anything familiar
a thousand places I would rather be
so I choke back the tears and try to find the bright side
though I find it hard to see beyond my suffering
in my heart I know your plan is so much bigger
but this small part is all that I can see
and I believe you haven’t left me here to wander
still I can't help but ponder where you're leading me
(chorus)
and I ask why this road
why this way
and this load
tell me how far must I go
till I see
till I know
why this road
A million miles away from anything familiar
what was it like to be so far from home
though you came in love
the world misunderstood you
there must have been some days when you felt so alone
but you endured, cause there was joy before you
joy that came because you sacrificed
Since you gave yourself just to spend forever with me
surely I can trust you'll lead me through my darkest times
when I ask why....(chorus)
From here I can not see
why you'd choose this path for me
but I don't have to understand to believe
that you know why
You know why this road
why this way
and this load
you know how far I must go
till I see
till I know
why this road

Marcell said...

a wise woman once said to me when I asked her about forgiveness - "you don't have to like (her)!" that was pretty freeing. I sure do know about struggling against a protective instinct when someone injures those we love. Not fun.
I Hope all becomes well.

di said...

all becomes well...
that is rich my lady.

i remember those words
and the context.
a wise woman, indeed.